The TRUE Information Highway

I have always had a very busy mind. I can't stand to set still at all and even watching TV or having company over doesn't fully allow my mind to rest. The only time I am truly "down" is when I read. Which is why it's so addictive.

15-20 years ago I begin to see a pattern in how my mind worked; how patterns formed, ideas were handled. Now, I might be the only person on the planet that would even pay attention to these things. And if I am, please don't tell me. I've worked hard for my thin facade as a normal human being.

The way I visualize my thought process is that each though/idea/problem is a separate road that makes a loop. In some cases these loops are only 2-3 hours long. In others the loop can take 3 or 4 days to travel. And some years.

All the loops, or highways, travel over an intersecting spot; a bus stop if you will. At the bus stop I have to direct the traffic (thoughts).

An example would be: I see something at a store that I think is cool and different; a new highway is added. I couple of hours later when I'm home and making dinner the loop is completed and I remember the item again. Essentially, I wave the though on to make another loop. This continues until I do one of the following:

1) study up on the item and decide it wasn't cool after all
2) I try making one and succeed
3) I go out and purchase them

Once I am satisfied with the ending, the thought is processed as having a satisfactory ending and moved over to the bus stop and that loop is closed.

I'm not sure how some loops get shorter rearrival time lines than others, but it all works great.

Some other loops, like the one working on converting the snap press, reoccur about every 2 to 3 weeks and I work on them until I'm crazy. If I don't get a satisfactory conclusion they are sent back out to make another loop.

I've paid attention over the years as my understanding of how my mind works has grown and I find almost all thoughts, feelings, plans, are handled this way. When I first heard about Becky and pain of loss was horrible; I dealt with it knowing I would get a reprieve; and I did. It looped out. Now pain like that loops back sooner at the beginning but sort of spirals in larger and larger loops as it ages. The first few days I would hurt every 10 or 15 minutes. The next week I would go an entire hour before I'd get hit with it again. And now, I go 3 or 4 hours.

I've also noticed that different loops have different intensities. Some loops I can't ignore when they come back around and some I can simply thing "I'll deal with you next time" and off they go.

Maybe, if I'd gone to college or studied the human thought process I'd have a better way to explain this.

Maybe next time it "loops" in I'll get a new in site to add to the post. :)




My brain, not on drugs.