Instant Messenger

I did it. I actually downloaded Instant Messenger and installed it last night. My cousin, Lori, and I email back and forth a lot during the evening as I write and last night she told me just to go out and get it. And I did.

It's so freaking FUN!

The only issue I had last night is that Lori has a Video cam on her side and I did not. So I got to see her and hear her; but I had to type all my responses. It was such an amazing gift to see someone across the country who you haven't really connected with in over 25 years. To actually hear their voice.

I bet that's a shocker, hu? How many people with the ease of traveling these days actually go 25 years without seeing a cousin they grew up with?

Lori and I could not have been closer as children. I always thought she was the wild, beautiful, one that did all the things I was to chicken to do. I was equally impressed, and jealous, of her my entire life.

Then we just grew apart. I didn't really thing much about it, because I pretty much loss contact with all my cousins, and there are a shit-load of them. As you might suspect from reading my posts, I didn't exactly come from a family that promoted family reunions . . . they could never find an asylum big enough for the entire family to attend.

But with the loss of Becky, I feel a need to connect with all my remaining family. And oddly, even after all this time, Lori and I still click. Really, talking to her is so comfortable I feel like I've been a part of her life all along.

But back to Instant Messenger. I'm a little in awe of it and yet, very worried it could become addictive as well. I also wonder why I "fought" not to have it for so many years. The only thing I can come up with honestly, is that I'm just stuck in my "old" mindset. I just felt too old to be on Instant Messenger. That was something the kids were doing. Even the few adults I know that defiantly have it, are kids at heart.

Regardless, I plan on getting a camera for my computer tonight and then you'd better watch out. I will be armed and clueless.