Forced to write

I hate to post about my NaNo experience to often, I figure it's like illness. No one really wants to hear about it but the sick person.

I hit 40,342 words tonight. That alone would make me happy, but the really good news is the easy flow of creation has returned! I may not have bitched about it online, but last week was a very difficult week for me. Every day was like pulling teeth to meet my daily goals. It took twice as long and sometimes I "knew" I was writing shit.

I just didn't have any option; I had to write and all that would come was shit. Therefore I wrote shit. I quess it makes a sick kind of sense, anyone who has to strain the way I did last week runs the chance of a suprise in their pants when all is said and done.

In fact, those of you torturning yourself with my first round writings will no doubt notice that the entire Chapter 16 is one long, convaluted sex scene. An entire chapter! Why? Because when all esle fails, I can write sex. Sex is easy to write. I needed words and after a week of fighting for every frigging one of them I just filled the blank space in my head with sweet, easy, sex.

Oddly, as soon as I finished that chapter I was off and running. Maybe I needed to write something easy to allow my brain a break. Or, maybe writing anything I didn't have to bop over the head and drag onto a page helped my creative flow. I don't know. But for now, I can't write fast enought to keep up with the new flow.

My real reason behind this post was to first apologize for the low quality of writing over the last week. I've never been forced to write when the muze wasn't working and it was a new and painful experience for me. But I made it.

I have 7 days and less than 10,000 words to go. As I've been averaging over 2000 a word each day I've written, I feel very confident about making it.

However, to all those bitches (and bitch"hims") who are posting in our online NaNo group in excitment for reaching their 50,000 ALREADY . . . enought! The rest of us are not encouraged by your sucess.