Unexpectadly Disappointed

I am suppose to meet my sister, Laura, later this week. She is 2-3 years older than I am. And while she lives in Lousianna and we've known of each other for at least 7 or 8 years, we've never met. She's one of my biological father's children.

But with a few unexpected twists, I face my upcoming trip a lot more stressed and broke than is good for me. After thinking about it for several days, I decided I need to cut down my trip drastically.

Originally, I was going to drive down Wednesday morning and stay with Byjo all of W,TH, and FRI. I might have gotten to see Laura some time during W and TH, but I was going to spend all day FRI with her and her family. Then come home on SAT.

When things began to go south, I thought I'd drive down TH and visit Byjo and spend the night, then see Laura for part of the day on FRI and drive home that same day.

This new arrangement had the added benefit of not only saving money and reducing the amount of time I'd spend surrounding by people (because I don't do well spending hours and hours with people), but I could also pick Steve up at the airport on WED in San Antonio and save a friend of his from having to leave work to do so.

Sounds great hu?

Yeah, until I pulled up Laura's old email and found out that I had confused the days she would be in the Dallas area. Instead of being there WED-FRI, she is going to be there MON-WED. There is REALLY no way I can make that.

I consoled my self with the fact we only live about 10 hours away from each other. And really, we've had 7+ years to meet. If it was that friggen important to either of us, we'd have met by now. Besides, we're in our mid 40s, surely we have many more years to get together.

But when I called her this morning and heard her voice...

When I heard her disappointement that I wouldn't be making it, I felt bad. I felt like I was missing something important. Like it honestly mattered to her that I woudln't be there.

No matter how I twist the times and funds; I just can't make it right now.

But I think I'll do as Steve suggested and set myself a concrete time to go visit her as soon as she gets home.

That's what I'll tell myself today, anyway.