D-Day

So, it's come to this. I've finally had to admit failure and face D-day.

All of my life I've waged a war on weight. It wasn't to bad when I was in my twenties and had young active children. It wasn't horrible in my thirties; as my children were to old to confine me and I was very active.

But the forties . . .


The forties have not been good to me weight wise. I spent several years pretty depressed, then my sister killed herself. From my 40th birthday until the end of October of last year I had probably gained 10 pounds. 10 pounds in 2-1/2 years. Not good.

Since my sisters death the end of October (a little over 6 months) I've gained another 20 pounds. That tends to make the previous weight gain seem small in comparison. For the first time in my life, my weight is so high that it's having a negative impact on the quality of my life.

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  When laying flat on my back, I have trouble breathing.
  
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  When I go to long without eating, I get sick.
  
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  I can hardly walk a mile and that at a pace so slow it doesn't count.
  
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  I can not STAND any heat or getting overexerted; I'll get sick.
  
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  My knees and joints ache.
  

And that is just the stuff I can think of right now.

So the time has come to "do" something. I can't ignore it any longer. I can't expect other's to help me out. I can't depend on myself, or Steve, to motivate me to exercise.

So tomorrow is D-day. It's D day I get off my fat ass and join the local YMCA.

Yes, I am very excited about forcing my jiggling and bouncing excessive flesh into work out close that are to small. Then huffing and puffing next to a size 2 Barbie doll that has the gall to wear makeup to the gym and spend the entire work out on her cell phone.

And while I am sharing with you my battle with the bulge, I will not be sharing any photos of it. Which oddly enough, I found several large women who DID document with photos their weight loss. Just so you don't feel left out, I'm posting one below.

No, it's not me. I would never be caught dead in that much pink and she has really cute hair.